3.23.2010

My Princess

I don't know if you knew this or not, but we have a princess that lives at our house.
It's true.
Our very own princess.

She is beautiful
She wears a crown
She gives orders
She rules the house
She can be found in a gown 95% of the day
She has the best princess wave of all the princesses around

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Her name is Princess Reagan

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We, her people, have learned that she is generally right all of the time and to argue is to ask for the world to end.

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We are very lucky because our princess is very generous with her hugs and kisses.

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She cares deeply for her people and make sure they are well taken care of. She gives us blankets if we are cold. She gets burps for the baby when he spits. And makes sure Crew has his buddy and that his chair is always in the right spot to watch their movies.

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We feel very blessed.

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Reagan loves everyone, not just those that live in this house. So if you are in the area, it would make Princess Reagan very happy if you would come and visit her. She is always wondering where everyone is and why they are not here. Our door is always open to you.

3.18.2010

Prom

No, no, no... you've got it all wrong!
I am 28 years old so, no, I didn't go to Prom.
Again.

My NEPHEWS went to Prom!

And I learned that I still have that yearning to go and experience that magical night. Get a beautiful fancy new dress that I will only wear one time, get my hair done at the hair dresser in some wispy up-do that may or may not be adorned with gems, have my nails (both fingers and toes) done, and be picked up by some handsome boy with a corsage that matches that beautiful dress that I am wearing. Aaaahhhh. Doesn't that sound blissful?

I think it does. But I don't know if it's true cause I've never gone.

But I did get a glimpse into the world of "Prom" this last Saturday.
I have 2 nephews who went to Cottonwood High Schools Prom on Saturday night. How did I get this glimpse? you ask? Well let me tell you...

One of my Nephews, we'll call him Spencer, is 17 and totally cool. How do I know he is totally cool? Because he was nominated for Prom King. Nominated, schnominated, you say. Ok, get this... he WON! Is that cool, or what? So now you know that I am cool, because My nephew is Cottonwood High's Prom King. I expect you to bow down when you see me because I am related to royalty. He also had a super cute date. You can see her below... She is the cheerleader that is with Reagan. Super cute. They had a great night planned... dinner at Rodigio Grill downtown, then off to the dance at Rice Eccles Stadium at the U, then regroup to watch a hypnotist that they hired to come and entertain them for the remainder of the evening. As you can see, Spencer had a great night.

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My other Nephew, we'll call him Hunter, is 15 and totally cool. How do I know he is totally cool? Well, with Hunter, you just know. He exudes coolness. There is just something about him that is cool. You'd know what I mean if you met him. He also had a fun night planned. Super cute date, you can see Quincy below. Super cute. They had dinner at Asian Star, went up to the dance at Rice Eccles, and then went laser tagging. Fun night. I actually think he had a great night.

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Here was the problem. If you didn't catch this before, Hunter is 15 and apparently had some other friends in the group that were also 15 and they needed someone to drive them as they do not yet have their license. Well, Hunter asked his cool mom to drive them. Heidi has to be cool. I mean, who would ask their mom to drive them to Prom if she weren't cool? You just wouldn't. So that validates her coolness. Anyway... Heidi was great with that but she had to meet up with Spencer to take pictures of him and his date with their group at the very time that Hunter was supposed to pick up his date and go take pictures with his group before they went to dinner. How could Heidi be in these two places at one time? She just couldn't.

So that is where I come in.
Heidi called me and asked if I would mind standing in for her. Of course I agreed! How could I pass this up? So, I got to drive Hunter and his friend to pick up their dates and then meet their group to take pictures and drop them off at dinner. Heidi took it from there.

I had the best time! And I think Hunter did too, minus my bad driving in the crazy weather! Why do we always get the craziest weather when we least want it? They were all great about it and I don't think it effected their night in the slightest. Here is my handsome nephew, Hunter, and his super cute date, Quincy, before we went to dinner.

Hunter was very nervous. Well, he wasn't really nervous, but I was nervous for him! He did keep checking himself in the mirror, though. Not that I can blame him... I would have done the same! But he didn't need to worry. Look how handsome he is

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When it was finally time to go pick up their dates, it was blizzarding outside. And I am not even exagerating. Look at it coming down!

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After we picked up the girls we met back at one of their friend's house to take pictures with the group. Here is Hunter, Quincy, his friend that rode with us and his date Abby.

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Don't they look so cute? And so excited?

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Here is a picture of the group. Don't they all look beautiful? I must say that I think they do. The only thing that kind of made me sad was the amount of strapless and spaghetti strap dresses there were. As you see only 1 girl had a jacket on. And may I remind you that it was BLIZZARDING outside! The girls that I picked up even refused to bring coats with them. WHAT? I thought that was completely crazy, but that's just me. As disappointing as that was, they did look gorgeous.

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Here is a picture of Quincy's beautiful corsage. There was a bit of an issue with the boys' corsages, but I thought hers turned out so pretty!

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Here is the couple out in the snow

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And this is my absolute favorite shot. They are walking out to the car in this crazy weather and it looks like a fairytale or a dream or something. So cool.

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I am so glad that Heidi asked me to help out. And that Hunter dared let me. I had forgotten what it was like to be in High School and be excited and giddy for a dance or to be with a boy you liked. It was invigorating to be around their energy. I couldn't help but smile with them and take some of that energy for myself! Oh, to be young and carefree! It was great!

And my dream of going to Prom has been re-ignited in me!
I know I am 28
and I know I am not in high school anymore,
but I just don't care.
I really want to go! Ha!

3.15.2010

Crew's Port

You may remember a while back, in December, that I posted about Crew's Port Surgery. I told you all about what a port was and why we were getting one for Crew.

Well, now we have been accessing Crew's port for over 3 months, 3 times a week and I wanted to show you what that really entails. So, my lovely mother stepped in to help me out.
It takes both Steve and I to administer Crew's factor. So, in order to take pictures of the whole procedure I needed my mom to hold Crew so I could be behind the camera. Thanks mom!

I am going to warn you now... If you don't like hospital stuff, or needles, or anything like that, you may want to stop reading, or looking, now. This is pretty graphic in that area. Otherwise, you will probably find this pretty interesting. I will tell you that I will not be offended if you can't stomach this stuff. As of 1 year ago, I couldn't either. So I get it. It's kind of amazing what you can do when you really have to. And this is proof.

So I am going to explain the whole process here for you. I want to start off by giving you a little background on Steve and I before you see what we are doing here in our home on a regular basis.

We'll start with me:
I have a little brother, and when I say little I mean a 26 year old who is 6'6 inches tall and two hundred plus pounds, so not so little I guess. Let's say younger than me brother. He was born with Hemophilia. I spent a majority of my childhood in hospital waiting rooms, with my grandparents, or at a neighbors house while my brother was getting infusions of his medicine. That was until my mom learned how to give it to him herself and then I got to be at home while Sky was getting his infusions. So needles and other medical tools were a big part of my life and all over my house. You would think that because of this I would be able to watch or do just about anything medical related but this isn't farther from the truth. I take after my dad. We both head for the nearest door when something like this is about to take place. I just can't watch. I hate seeing it done on someone else just about as much as I hate it being done on me. I don't think I had actually sat and watched my brother get a shot one time. I always had other things to keep my attention. Sure, I grabbed things my mom might need like an alcohol swab or syringe, but then I was gone. I have always sworn that I would never poke my child if he had Hemophilia, someone would have to do that for me. I don't care how many hospitals we had to go to, I wasn't going to do it. Now I have one...

And now Steve's story:
Steve can't handle anything medical. Steve would walk into a hospital and pass out. Much like his father, from what I have heard. So he avoided them like the plague. His best friend had a baby while we were dating about five years ago and Steve went to visit them at the hospital and the minute he walked in he had to sit down. I do think he eventually made it to the room, but only lasted a few minutes before he bailed. He says it's something about the smell. When I was pregnant with our first baby, Reagan, my blood work came back that I was O negative and they needed to know immediately what Steve's blood type was because I might need some special medicine if he had a positive blood type. He wasn't sure what his blood type was so we had to go into my doctors office to have his blood drawn. He acted like it wasn't going to be a big deal, but I was very nervous. I knew his history, and it wasn't good. We got into the lab and the gal was able to get a vein on the first poke, which wasn't a surprise (have you seen Steve's veins?). The lab tech began to draw his blood and we were chatting as she went. Suddenly she grabbed Steve and asked if he was feeling alright. I looked at him and he was completely white. She hurried and got the needle out of his arm as he slumped to the ground. He totally passed out. He had to lay on the ground, sipping some sprite, as she poked him again and finished the blood draw. I knew then that if we ever had a Hemophiliac that poor child would be stuck with some pretty yellow bellied parents. We just aren't good with this stuff.

Fast forward 3 1/2 years...

This is Steve, my mom and Crew. Crew is getting factor and I am taking pictures. This is what happens at our house 3 times a week.

The first thing we do when we are getting ready for his shot is get some tegaderm tape, put on some numbing cream, and put the tape over the spot where Crew's port is on his chest. That has to stay on for 30 minutes before we poke him. In the mean time we get everything ready...
We mix the factor
We set up our sterile field
We open the different solutions that we will be using
We make sure everything is ready to go

When it is time we put on Crew's "Cape". This is a pillowcase that we call his cape so that his arms are immobile so that he can't pull the needle out.

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Crew is awesome. He usually just jumps up on our lap and puts his arms in. Usually when we say it's time for his medicine he lifts up his shirt to help us out. He is such a stud!

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Then we take off the tape and the cream. You can barely see the tape on there, but if you look close you can see that it is holding the cream on there.

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This is a close-up of his port. It is really red here. His skin gets pretty irritated with all of the creams and cleaning solutions that we put on there. You can also see a bunch of little red dots where we have poked him before.

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My mom has just wiped off the cream and we are getting ready for Steve to start.

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Steve puts on his rubber gloves.

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Now, Steve is cleaning the area with alcohol swabsticks.

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Next he cleans with the triangle sponge thing that I can't remember the name of right now.

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Once the area is all clean it is time for the poke. Steve is getting the Saline solution hooked to the needle before he pokes Crew, making sure the saline is through the line.

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Before the poke Steve is feeling for the port. He holds onto it with two fingers and makes sure he knows right where the middle is. He has to hold it in place so it doesn't move when he pokes it with the needle. It can move around a little bit.

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Once he is ready and the port is steady, he pokes the needle into the port. Notice Crew's mouth in this picture... He is totally calm. He really is a champ!

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Once the needle is in we have to draw back with the syringe to make sure we have it in there correctly, and if we do then we put in the full syringe of Saline solution.

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After the Saline is completely in we unscrew the syringe and screw in the syringe with the factor. We make sure that all of the factor goes into the port. Crew has become really interested in what we are doing. We always do it with a movie on and he usually watches that. But lately, he has started watching the routine of his port more and more.

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After the factor is done, we move to more Saline. This flushes the line to make sure that the factor isn't sitting in the tubes and is fully into his system.

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Look at that face! Oh, I don't know how he does this, and it doesn't even seem to faze him.

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After the Saline we move on to the Heprin. This is the last thing we put in the line. It stays in the line and keeps it from clotting up. I can't imagine how this would happen considering that his problem is that he doesn't clot, but the doctors seem to think this is very important, and they know best.

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Now we are all done giving him the gazillion different solutions and it is time to "de-access" his port. So Steve grabs ahold of the port to hold it down while he pulls out the needle. Look at his face again... I think this is the worst part for him. I don't think he can feel any pain but I think he can feel it pull on his skin and I'm sure that is weird.

And then we are all done! When I lay it out like this I am seriously wondering about my sanity. I can't believe how far we have come in such a short time. I can't believe how far STEVE has come! I am so lucky to have married such a great man. There is no way I could do this without him and he makes it a breeze.

And then there is Crew. I am such a lucky mom. If you know Crew, you know that he is on the GO! He doesn't walk anywhere, he RUNS! This kid doesn't slow down, it's just not his nature. But when we say it's time for medicine, he walks over and puts on his cape and stays still throughout the whole process. Kind of a miracle. Actually, a huge miracle. Crew is so sweet and patient as we poke and hurt him. I love him so much and look up to my little 2 year old. He is teaching me major resilience. He constantly amazes me. I LOVE THIS KID SO MUCH! I wish we didn't have to do this to him, but am so grateful we have a way to keep him healthy. Seriously, how lucky am I?

Now you know what is happening at our house. I am actually getting so much better with this stuff, which is also a miracle. I get a little bit better every time I talk about it, so it helps to write it down like this. I hope you have enjoyed your little glimps into our hospital!

3.11.2010

1 Month

The ONE MONTH mark has come and gone.
Is that crazy? I think it is.
The past 5 weeks have flown by and I barely remember them happening. I can list a million things we've done, which is kind of insane because we just had a baby, but I don't think I would have missed any of them. I think I was on autopilot. Just go and do. Make my list. Mark things off. Days go by. You know?

Well, I wanted to post a picture of Cache at one month. He is already changing and growing. Yesterday he smiled at me for the first time. I mean REALLY smiled, you know? That first smile that is on purpose. I was talking and cooing at him. And there it was... the sweetest little smile. Those are the moments that make my world matter. I love this kid! I can't wait for the next "first" to come our way.

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Look at those cheeks! Don't you just want to squeeze them? Don't worry, they get their daily, sometimes hourly, squeeze by yours truly. LOVE this kid!

3.10.2010

Her new-found passion...

Reagan has found her new love.
I think we may be in trouble.
A 3 year old cheerleader?

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Trouble.

Reagan was invited by her cousin to join her in a cheer camp that the Cottonwood High School Cheerleaders were putting on and, of course, Reagan HAD to participate. She didn't know what a cheerleader was, but if Summer was doing it, she was too. (and let's be honest, I kinda wanted to see how she would do during a half time show dancing in the gym in front of a ton of people, well a ton for a 3 year old.)

I wasn't surprised to see that she LOVED every minute of it. She is made for the stage. She loves an audience, and I have learned, the audience loves her.

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It was so freakin' cute. She walked in swinging her hips and blowing kisses to the audience. (no other girls were doing this, she just thought it seemed appropriate).

They did a cheer that to this day Reagan still is whipping out of nowhere to remind me that she is going to be a cheerleader "tomorrow".

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Then they did a dance to "Diamonds are a Girl's Best Friend" from Moulin Rouge. It was awesome! Here are some shots...

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Reagan loved this cheerleader that helped her throughout the performance. She was so cute with Reagan. I think she has a crush on my nephew, so that may have something to do with the attention she was giving Reagan... Go get her, Spence! She's cute!

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So, now you've seen the dirt... what do you think? Are we in trouble? The girl has no fear. And that makes me very afraid!